eden ;

I wanna see You face-to-face,
where being in Your arms is the permanent state...
in a sweet downpour of innocent rain.

...I remember when the stars were young,
when You breathed life into my lungs.

(Eden - Phil Wickham)

I have been listening to this song SO much over the past few days, and I think Phil Wickham is incredible. (If you're interested, you should also check out Divine Romance and Cielo. Oh, and his live version of How Great Thou Art never fails to send a million shivers down my spine). But, more than that, I think God is incredible. And this song has really become my prayer over the past few days. Sometimes it just seems like so many things get in the way of our relationship, and it makes me sad. I guess if I really call out "Abba, Daddy", then I should be treating my relationship with God the same way (if not better) as the way I treat the bond with my Dad. And, sometimes, after a really long and hard day, when every bit of me hurts - both mentally and physically - and there's no one there to give me a hug, I want to fall into God's arms. Too many times I don't do this, though. Too many times I find some other distraction - Facebook, iPlayer - and I go to bed without a hug. Similarly, when something amazing happens in my day, a phonecall home is often not enough to convey my happiness. I forget to thank God for blessing me.

I guess, essentially, I'm feeling overwhelmed by the fact that the God who hung the stars in the sky breathed life into MY lungs. And yet for the vast majority of the time I'm completely indifferent to Him.

It's a pretty big concept, I know, and I feel a bit messy about it myself. But just know that this is an AMAZING SONG!